I didn't write this though I can really relate to it....a prayer for times when I've wondered if I could walk in faith for one more day; times when I've needed to wrestle with God like Jacob did, or groan to Him like David because of the struggles within my heart.
I'll bet you've been there a time or two yourself...especially if you're married.
When loving means to grapple,
When kindness is a fight, against the self that gives,
And him who takes, when heartache is the payment,
For proffered grace
Lord , hear my prayer
When fury is my bread, and grief the the vim that animates my bones,
When those I love are my foes,
When hate and mercy grapple for my soul,
When I the turncoat am,
The soldier who won’t stand to bear the battle
Lord hear my prayer
When rash, I rave at heaven,
And strike out blindly against the cold,
When I am Jacob, wrestling against the Lord
And lamed by grace, I fall
Lord hold me close, and be my prayer.
~ Sarah, Thoroughly Alive